I was talking to Sara today and she asked me how having a room all to myself was. I replied I guess it’s nice. And she asked if I was lonely. I told her I was a little lonely but I was keeping myself occupied for the time with work. But the honest truth is, work will definitely not prevent my loneliness. I need more than just books and solitude. If I intend on enjoying this summer to any degree I will need human interaction. I will need friends. But the person I need to see the most is, of course, you. Your company is vital for my sanity. If I do not end up seeing you this summer for some terribly twisted reason, I will definitely go insane. I’m already in a big, empty room in all white. All I’m missing is a straight jacket. So please, come visit me and rescue me from my impending insanity.

Love,

Kurt

In your post from yesterday, you said that I don’t complain about driving all the time. Well, sorry babe, but you’re wrong. Today, I drove for 7 hours. And although 350 miles is a lot, it should take more like 5 or 6 hours. I was stuck in traffic, Jack in the box took forever to make my burger, and I still have a headache from the drive. The truth is, I do complain about driving. Only, it’s usually a conversation with myself. I know that neither you nor anybody else wants to hear about how terrible my drive across California was. I’m sure you are used to getting your fair share of complaints every day from your family members. I just try to look at the positives, like how I am 350 miles closer to you than before.

Love,

Kurt

Today, I’m packing up to go back to school. This will be the first time I will spend the majority of the summer away from home. It will also be the first time I will have a room to myself with a door…and a lock. So much freedom! But at the same time, I’m pretty sure I will be very bored most of the time. Aside from the friendly dog, I don’t think I will be “hanging out” with my roomies. I’ll probably be utilizing the door in my room quite a bit. Hopefully you will come to visit me sometimes to periodically cure my boredom.

Love,

Kurt

I know this post is about half a day late and I’m sorry for that. I did not have a computer on hand last night to make a post. I had a lot of fun last night, meeting new people and doing new things. I remember talking to you once about how to become more social. You told me that you put yourself in situations which were uncomfortable and forced you to talk to other people. I guess I did this inadvertently last night. Maybe I need more practice or something but I don’t think I did very well. I tried to talk to people but I just couldn’t keep the conversation going. I didn’t feel comfortable so I didn’t allow myself to relax and be myself. I don’t know how you did it, but I am jealous. I guess all i can do is keep trying. But I’m going to need some help from you, the master.

Love,

Kurt

Today, we have something in common. We both got haircuts. We’re like twins now…except not at all. My Dad cut my brother’s hair and then my hair. And right after he was done cutting mine, he shoveled all my excess hair in a pile and compared it to my brother’s pile of hair. It appeared to be a close call, but I believe that my pile of hair was bigger than his. After a while, I realized how weird it felt to be comparing piles of hair. I got a strange sense of enjoyment from it. I guess it’s just the innate feeling of competition that all people get from time to time. In any case, I’m sure if I compared my pile of hair with yours, you would win by a long shot.

Love,

Kurt

Today, I went to my friend’s house. He brews his own beer and offered to give me a couple of bottles. But before he gave them to me he asked how often I drink. I told him that I only drink when I’m with my girlfriend and that when we drink we are just trying to get drunk. I realized that if it weren’t for you, I would pretty much be straight edge. Aside from our occasional nights of drinking, I spend the majority of my time studying or watching shows or movies on netflix. Wow, I’m pretty boring. Actually, come to think of it, I’m a border line nerd! The next step would be for you to break up with me. Then my vision would become impaired and I would need glasses. Then my teeth would shift and I would need braces. I’d be super nerd!

Love,

Kurt

I can tell you with all honesty that you are correct in thinking that my home no longer feels like home. It is now known to me as my parents house. That is something that will never change. But currently I still do not identify a home for myself. Dorms are nice, but I have no family associated with it. And my new room for the summer is far from home to me because I simply don’t feel comfortable in it. When it comes down to it, I am in the same situation you are. We are both in a transitionary state. We have nowhere to identify as a home. But I’m sure that everybody goes through this period. This is generally when people start to figure out themselves as much as they can. Then, when the journey is over and the questions are answered, that is when people settle down and find themselves a place to call home. This state takes a lot of time, maturity, and experience, all of which I do not have enough of. All I know is that, for now, we should enjoy ourselves and feel free to experience all we can.

Love,

Kurt

I know I haven’t texted you today as much as I usually do, and I’m sorry. I was hanging out with Declan and my brother today so my texting was somewhat limited. I hope your day went pretty well. I got to sleep in till 11 this morning which gave me over 10 hours of sleep. It was awesome and well needed. I’m going surfing early tomorrow morning, which will also be something I haven’t done in a while. I hope you get a good amount of sleep tonight to prepare for your long day of class tomorrow. I wish the best of luck to you!

Love,

Kurt

In the span of 4 days, I traveled over 700 miles, or 12 hours, in a car. But the longest trip by far was made today. It was just about 400 miles. And yes, the only way this drive was bearable is because I played music the whole way. One song in particular is called “A life of arctic sounds” by Modest Mouse. It’s a perfect driving song because they say, “100 miles is a long drive inside a car”, and it keeps going to 1100 miles. But every time they say, “400 miles…” I think to myself, “that is a long drive in a car”. I appreciate the CD you made me for our anniversary. I listened to it on the way home and it made me think of you and miss you. I think the best thing for a 6 hour car ride would be if you came with me. You are very entertaining and I always love to be around you. We could listen to good music the whole way and you could talk to me and keep me from going crazy. I couldn’t think of a better way to spend six hours in a car.

Love,

Kurt